How God gave me rest when I was busy for Him
In the gospel of Luke, he narrates about the visit of Jesus to the home of Martha and Mary. While Jesus was in their home, we are told that Martha was distracted with all preparation while Mary sat at Jesus' feet. When Martha complains, Jesus responds,
'you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed-or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.' (Luke 10:41-42)
These verses captured my reflection during this pandemic. The last few months have brought drastic changes in my life. At the same time, the currents of unconscious and subconscious turned upside down. My routine changed to a unique lifestyle, and the uncertain time became my new normal. The busy life of work and ministry got slowed down-no more rush, no more distraction but rest.
As I reflect on this crisis since the beginning, I see the hand of God and Himself calling me to take rest in Him. I didn't want to give up control; I wanted to be in charge. However, what was happening was beyond what I could handle.
Staying at home and remotely working created an opportune moment to be at His feet. To fall intimate and more profound in love with Him. The message that runs with clarity is that I'm safe in God's hand and to rely on Him rather than my efforts and ministry. The one thing that Jesus pronounces to Mary started to sink in my heart.
Before the crisis, I was busy working for Him, planning events to campus fellowship. I was preoccupied with book writing and other life-oriented tasks. I did not realize rest as a priority, but merely time like any other. The forgotten scripture books like Zephaniah that are unmarked in my bible got a chance to be read and shared. I'm glad to God for refocusing me to choose that which is better.
This occasion has brought different tidings. God reminded me to find rest in Him as I serve Him, as I serve the students. As a believer and a minister in Christ, I have preached about rest and heard about it. However, I realize it is not about doing but also about resting. It is more about asking the Lord to help us to be Mary in Martha's world. In this way, our focus is on the things above.